A Black Cat or A Wise Woman

Courting my inner wisdom

Photo by Ash Edmonds on Unsplash

I mentioned in my letter a couple of weeks ago that I had a Garden council that personify my inner wisdom, my inner good girl, and my authentic self. I also mentioned that my inner wisdom was a black panther I’ve named Reija.  Reija has appeared, unnamed, in a couple of my written explorations. She has an energy about her of groundedness, wisdom, patience, and compassion.

She first showed up in this poem:

All I want to do is embrace it, this large black cat whose green eyes bore into mine

I feel held even without an embrace

Seen

Known

Those green eyes sparkle with a love so deep

They see every imperfection and cherish me still

They gaze with a steadfastness that ensures I am held even when I cannot feel it

I sense the warm softness of her fur with only my eyes

I feel her rumble of pleasure and compassion though I don't hear it

I reach out then to stroke her fur and feel rock hard power beneath it

I long to fall into her

To feel her warmth around me

To know the safety of that power

But her eyes tell me to wait

She has shown up twice in caves, appearing to women in need of a guide. Women with a path ahead of them they cannot walk alone. In one of those stories, she shifts between a large black panther and an all-black house cat so that she can be present in all situations.

Other times my inner wisdom has appeared as an old woman found deep in the woods. She’s always expecting me, has endless patience, and, annoyingly, likes to answer my questions with her own, or simply point me back to myself. Given that she is a personification of parts of myself, I suppose her responses are valid.

It feels helpful to create characters to represent my inner wisdom. Doing so allows me to separate that wisdom a bit from all of the other less wise parts of myself. I can better see it on its own merits without being all jumbled up in the mess. I also wonder if tapping into creativity in this way is part of it too, like it’s a part of my brain that my ego can’t reach.

How do you envision your inner wisdom?

An Invitation

As I mentioned last week, I have a little experiment in store for us. I invite you to join me in circle to explore inner wisdom.

The Details

We will meet on Zoom April 22nd (Earth Day!) at 9am Pacific

We will journal.
We will doodle.
We will turn inward with a little meditation.
We will craft ourselves a blessing/intention.
There will be opportunities to share if you feel comfortable doing so.

We will be sitting with this question:

How do I disconnect from my inner wisdom and how has this been a coping mechanism?

To honor the container and confidentiality, this event will NOT be recorded. You must attend live and arrive on the call within 5 minutes of the start time.

Are you in? Sign up here. There is no charge for this gathering. If you know someone who might like to join us, please feel free to share.

To the wisdom inside you,